Sunday, October 23, 2011
August 8, 2011 is a day we will not soon forget. 4 short months after hearing that Kevin was cancer free (from testicular cancer), we heard those horrible words AGAIN, "It's Cancer." This time it wasn't Kevin, it was me. As I lay in that hospital bed, my first thoughts were "I do NOT have time for this and I do NOT want to fight this battle." It only took one look at the 2 sets of watery eyes (Morgan and Hannah's) to realize that I had no choice but to fight. I had signed on to be a mommy and my job was not anywhere near complete. How would I find the fight within me to go through surgery, recovery, and chemo? That's what I'm still trying to figure out. There are many people who have gone through worse, but how can I find that same strength within me? Will I ever find that strength? Time will tell.